Happy Birthday!!!

No Silly, it’s not my birthday; it’s my new blog’s!

Because this is my VERY FIRST post, I feel the need to explain why I want to blog at all. I will refer to this when I start feeling guilty for not writing more often. It will be my permission to write about whatever I want or nothing at all.

I'm not a writer... I actually fight myself when I try. And no, that's not my “Big Bad Secret.” I'm dyslexic. (1st band-aid ripped off...) So all y'all in blog-land, don't expect too much... I'll be a periodic blogger at best.

Nope, my Big Bad is that I have trouble thinking of- and doing for others and it shows in my knitting (and in other areas of my life as well.) I'm not proud of that fact; in actuality, it causes me great discomfort and guilt. It is, however, my personal gremlin. Strangest thing... the guilt I feel is very Catholic-esk. (I’m not Catholic, but I am Christian -- don't judge.)

I always dread knitting question #2 (OK, it may not be the "actual" second question, and it may only be asked by other knitters, but it is in the top 10 and I dread it just the same):
Q #1 "What are you making?"
A: Sometimes I'll tell, sometimes I'll make something up... depends on my mood. ;o)
Q#2 "Who are you making it for?"
A : I KNIT FOR MY SELF.

Even if I'm making or creating an item for someone else, I'm making it for myself first. Actually, let's call a spade a spade: I make items for myself and when the project is complete, I MAY decide to give it away -- and that's a BIG maybe. If I don't follow this formula, the project may never be completed. Christmas UFO's? I don't have any. I never even consider Christmas knitting. That's right, you finally begin to understand. SELFISH. With capital letters... Only child syndrome rears its ugly head...

I've decided to own this gremlin. It's a fact and it's mine. No, I won't be telling you that this is the "correct" way to be... or that you should agree with me. I’m also not going to beat myself up over it or go on about how bad this thing is… it just is. This is just me, trying to accept myself and my own personal negatives. So, all of y'all out there who’ve never made anything for yourselves or who "always" give away your finished projects, please pat yourselves on the back. You’re a better than I am. Now keep your trap shut and go away.

I’m doing this for me, not you.